iknimaya (iknimaya) wrote in lesbian_girls,


Ok so a bit of background.. I'm 21 years old, had two girlfriends when I was younger (but no sexual experience) and have had several relationships with men since (all sexual). I've always been attracted to both, as believe love sees no gender.

My current girlfriend, who is 20, from what I know so far, has had very little sexual experience with men but absolutely no experience with women up till now besides the odd internet girlfriend. She identifies herself as a lesbian.

We've been together for a few weeks, still getting to kbow eachother and haven't had sex yet or even kissed much - but still very much enjoy cuddling up to eaxhother and stroking eachothers skin all night, which to me feels quite intinatw in itself. We'd had a few drinks yesterday and she seemed upset after we had a jokey conversation about said friends sex life. My lady revealed, after me much persisting for her to tell me what was up, that she felt like she couldn't give me what i wanted.. and I asked what she meant and she said that she has zero sex drive and doesnt know why and that she felt like a freak, and quickly said its not going to ever NOT happen as she has had some experiences withmen, but that each time it did nothing for her. She was quite upset and so I didn't ask more about it - just that I'm with her because I want to be, and that sex isn't a priorirt because I like her so much - which is all true.

We are both very nervous and awkward people, but i know she is more so. My experiences with men haven't been all that great - but I still consider myself to have a high sex drive as I like the thought of it, and whenever she's near me I want nothing more than to get intimate qith her and make her feel good. I'm now panicking that she hasn't felt the same towards me, or may have felt slightly pushed - as whenever i try and put my tongue in her mouth its never met with hers. It's not a priority logically, but sexually - for me - it is. I'm hoping its just nerves as I don't understand how she cpuld initially be attracted to me if she doesn't fancy me.. especially as we don't know eachother all that well..... And i know she finds it very difficult to trust people, especially due to having a violently abusive father. I care about her a lot, and I know this post sounds very sex-orientated.. but this is all very new to me, especially being with someone who could potentially asexual rather than lesbian.

I guess I'm looking for some opinions on this and/or some advice!! :)
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